Q: marty, do you believe in god & why?
A: now this is a good … really good question and its a really deep personal one that i would be glad to answer
growing up i was raised around church. all i saw as a Hispanic kid growing up in the 80’s and 90’s was Santos and candles light all over the house with figures like Jesus and virgin Mary. hell i was named after a saint that my mother was prayin to when she was in labor because i almost died during birth. i was is catholic school from kindergarten all the way to the 4th grade. asa kid i was always dragged to church but i never minded because i liked it i mean in school we use to do the whole church thing as well, i even was one of the alter boys at my church and then became the head alter boy. but as i got older and i started to learn the truth of life… i was goin threw alot of bullshit and i always prayed and prayed my ass off cryin for help… tears and blood went into my praying. one day i remember some shit happened and i was cryin and in pain and i didnt know what to do i did what i thought was best and i went to my room and prayed while cryin and screamin and shit i was yellin to god to help me and to give me a fuckin sign that he was listening to me and that he loved me… of course i got no answer… so i tried again more tears and more pain i felt and i screamed for him to give me a fuckin sign… and i got nothing at all, i was so pissed i told “god” how i really felt. i cursed him out and i went all the fuck out and said how i really felt that time point in time. i was so mad and so pissed the fuck off that from that point on i said to my self i would never ever put my self in the hands of god ever again…
dont get me wrong by a slim chance i do have faith and i do kinda believe because i mean shit i have an open mind and if i believe in aliens and monsters why cant i believe there is or was a god?
but for me to take it seriously and to live my life by the “bible” it aint for me, i will not do it…
so i hope people understand what i mean by this and don’t go runnin off judging me wrongly but its just a real personal thing i have with out so called “GOD”. if anyone would like to get a better understanding or need any explain then feel free to ask me
- FormSpring Submission for form questions at 09/09/09 4:32 PM
Q: marty, do you believe in god & why?
A: now this is a good … really good question and its a really deep personal one that i would be glad to answer
growing up i was raised around church. all i saw as a Hispanic kid growing up in the 80’s and 90’s was Santos and candles light all over the house with figures like Jesus and virgin Mary. hell i was named after a saint that my mother was prayin to when she was in labor because i almost died during birth. i was is catholic school from kindergarten all the way to the 4th grade. asa kid i was always dragged to church but i never minded because i liked it i mean in school we use to do the whole church thing as well, i even was one of the alter boys at my church and then became the head alter boy. but as i got older and i started to learn the truth of life… i was goin threw alot of bullshit and i always prayed and prayed my ass off cryin for help… tears and blood went into my praying. one day i remember some shit happened and i was cryin and in pain and i didnt know what to do i did what i thought was best and i went to my room and prayed while cryin and screamin and shit i was yellin to god to help me and to give me a fuckin sign that he was listening to me and that he loved me… of course i got no answer… so i tried again more tears and more pain i felt and i screamed for him to give me a fuckin sign… and i got nothing at all, i was so pissed i told “god” how i really felt. i cursed him out and i went all the fuck out and said how i really felt that time point in time. i was so mad and so pissed the fuck off that from that point on i said to my self i would never ever put my self in the hands of god ever again…
dont get me wrong by a slim chance i do have faith and i do kinda believe because i mean shit i have an open mind and if i believe in aliens and monsters why cant i believe there is or was a god?
but for me to take it seriously and to live my life by the “bible” it aint for me, i will not do it…
so i hope people understand what i mean by this and don’t go runnin off judging me wrongly but its just a real personal thing i have with out so called “GOD”. if anyone would like to get a better understanding or need any explain then feel free to ask me
- FormSpring Submission for form questions at 09/09/09 4:32 PM
